Megan’s Story
My name is Megan and I’m thirteen and a half years old.
When I first came to Maxine, I was really over my body. I hated the way I looked and the way I felt all the time.
I was always tired and crabby and I felt generally unhealthy. I was always telling myself how fat and ugly I looked. I tried a million different things to change my eating and exercise habits. I tried going it alone, dieting with my mum (who is now also with Maxine), Mum and I did Weight Watchers together, we even got a gym membership that I used, like, twice. I always found it really hard to keep motivated. And of course, I could never find a weight loss program to sign up for that didn’t require me to be over sixteen. And that would make me feel bad about myself, so I would go home and eat. Chocolate, mostly. And then I would feel bad that I ate chocolate, so I would eat chocolate to make me feel better. Do you see a vicious circle forming?
The worst part about feeling fat and ugly was clothes shopping. At my heaviest/biggest, I was twelve years old, 156 centimeters tall and I weighed 82 kilograms and had to buy size 16 to 18 clothes. So while my friends were borrowing clothes from each other, I could barely fit into clothes that their mums wore!!! So I would go into the WOMEN’S section of Target or Kmart or Big W, and I would try and find something that fit me and that I liked. Yeah, good luck with that. And I would look wistfully at Cotton On and City Beach and think, “Man, if I went in there, those skinny, perfect looking girls would just whisper to their friends, ‘Guuuuuuuuuurrrll, you are WAY too fat to be in here. Stop being a try hard.’ ” So I would be as difficult as possible for my poor mum so that she didn’t take me clothes shopping too often.
So feeling fat really restricted my life. I even hated going swimming in public. I tried to put on this ’I don’t really care about how I look or what you think of me, I’ll eat whatever I want’ facade, when really I cared deeply about how people perceived me. I think the straw that broke the camel’s back was when a charming young boy in the year below me at school thought it would be a fabulous idea to call me ‘heifer’, (a female cow, not the thinnest of animals, if you get my drift) ‘tank’ and the highly original, ‘fatty’. That was when I decided that I wasn’t going to let my weight control my life anymore. I was tired of feeling awful and creating the illusion that everyone was staring at me. I was going to change.
Enter Maxine and Laurie…
My mum was the one who wanted me to do the whole naturopath thing. By this time I was absolutely desperate. I just wanted to feel good about myself. She asked me whether I was going to see this through and in my head I was like, “DAMN STRAIGHT!!” but she would have looked at me funny so I just said, “You betcha!”
So I filled out the questionnaire with my answers to the what I thought slightly intrusive questions and went into Maxine. Yeah, I was a little wary thinking it would be all the Chinese symbols and Indian chant music and the smell of incense thick in the air and herbs everywhere and I thought, “Oh no, this Maxine is going to come out looking like a stick insect wearing a flowy white cheesecloth shirt with a daisy chain round her neck and flowy blue hippie pants with bells on the bottom, and she’ll say I have to go vegan and live on leaves and berries.” WRONG!!!!! Maxy comes out, with funky clothes and big cool chunky necklace and heels! Not at all fat, but not freakishly thin. Normal and approachable but utterly fabulous!! She whisks me into her little room and has a look over my questionnaire and tells me some stuff about listening to my body, and completely unjudgemental!! Yay!! I remember quite clearly when we came to the last page of the quiz she said to me, “Attractiveness? You put a four? You know that’s the worst one? You don’t think your attractive at all?” I shrugged sheepishly. “You are an attractive, vibrant young woman and attractiveness has absolutely nothing to do with your weight.” The foundations of my brand new positive mind set were in place!!
So Maxy told me the proper foods to eat and gave me the herbs that I forgot to take for ages but I eventually took them regularly. Everything was tailored to my exact needs and lifestyle. But good old Maxine was definitely not afraid to pull me up if I needed a bit of a reality check. And so I FINALLY began losing weight!!! I reached my first weight goal, 78 kilos, then 75 kilos and I started having to buy new clothes. Well. Wasn’t that a very…special experience. I felt totally defeated!! Nearly in tears, I said to Mum, “I’m so fat, I still have to shop in the same shops, I’ve worked so hard for nothing!!” So Mum, being Mum, consoled me and told me that, realistically, I may have to do that, but let’s go look in Sussan. It was there that I found my favorite black tights that I practically live in and
my favorite gorgeous flowery shirt. I tried them on and looked in the mirror. And proceeded to burst into tears. Yep. Crying in the middle of the changing rooms. A poor woman that was trying something on and she didn’t know what was going on!!! But I felt so good to feel good in something!!
So with new resolve I pressed on with my weight loss. I went through all the stages of dieting:
not eating because I couldn’t find anything good to eat and I was so over having to think about it and make choices all the time, recklessness, exercising to within an inch of my life, making my diet so strict and restricted I literally only ate meat, fruit, vegetables and nuts, and of course the inevitable ‘I’m so fat moments’, through all of which my wonderful, amazing friends, family, parents and of course Maxine and Laurie supported me.
I still have a bit of a way to go in my weight loss journey, but I am almost at my goal weight, size and shape. I am now 69.25 kilograms and I am a size 12, with one size 10 dress in my box of tricks!! This brings my total weight loss to 12.75 kilograms, and taking with it four dress sizes. But in this I have gained invaluable self-confidence and knowledge about health and nutrition which will help me in a million ways in the future. I feel so much better about myself. I have learned not to put myself down so much and that
I have been created exactly as I am and to celebrate it!! I also learned that I can’t just spit my dummy in the dirt because I ate a chocolate or some loser laughed at me about my weight. We are strong!!!! But I could not have done any of this without the amazing support of my wonderful friends, my gorgeous family and the absolutely fabulous Maxine and Laurie!!! I owe them my health and my self-image!! Thank you!!
Megan









